A few months ago I took a holiday. I went off to London, England for a while, six weeks. It was nice. I was alone to do what I needed but it ended sadly when I had to come home to deal with a sick cat who died shortly after my return. I’m glad I was able to spend those days with her but as I fell back into my life at home I kept thinking about London.
I’m there now. I came back after much difficult soul searching. I haven’t completed my sabbatical and so now I am doing that. I’m not sure what the future holds, if I’ll return, if anyone back there will even want me to. If I’ll survive, though, It will be because I made it happen on my own. I am, for all intentions, penniless and unemployed and it’s expensive here. I have prospects and a decent resume and I have faith in that but it’s a scary thing I’ve done and I often feel lonely and I worry a lot about the strange way I left and the impact it’s had on my life and the life of those I love back there.
A mid-life crisis? Is that what you think? Perhaps you’re right but a crisis means that you need to act to correct it. Time will tell if what I’ve done was a mistake, but for now, I see my life stretching out along new roads. Time to start the journey.
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Prisoner,
I guess life would be easy if we all knew the answers. I hope the best for you brother and only you will know if you are doing the right thing.
Just remember you have friends that give a damn about you; no matter what your situation.
If there is something I or we can do to help we are here.
I wish you comfort and peace as you start your new journey.
its very sad when the journey begins, it’s the lives we leave behind and the uncertainty of the emotions that have an influence on us. if you stop to think about them you will go back to them and this is the end of a journey that never began.
I have always said that we travel alone and the sooner you realize this the better because for most of us we learn this lesson too late. there will always be people we meet on this journey that may or may not have any bearing on the journey but they are good memories to have. the final part of this journey will begin when you meet you soulmate and this my friend is when your life will finally have the meaning you want.
Our paths may never cross again physically but lets keep in contact in cyberspace.
I wish you well on your journey to find yourself and I or someone will always be there with you, remember you will not travel alone.
yet you will always be alone
Lightly is wrong. You’re not alone.
Ever hear a song called “Beaujolais Nouveau” by the Humpff Family (from Scotland)? It’s about leaving, something that Scots have long been familiar with. Check it out.
Keep us updated on your journey.
Change takes courage and strength in the face of the unknown. Many (most) people stay stuck in places and situations they would rather not be in because they fear the unknown. You’ve taken the first (and probably hardest) step…. stay the course and enjoy the journey.
Pris,
I’ve rececently learned the damage that complacency can do in your life, to your soul. I’ve been looking for something else, something better, for awhile and the whole time struggling with the notion that perhaps I was just being greedy by not appreciating what I already had. Take the opportunity to learn about yourself, and watch the ways that you’ll grow and change with every new day and with every new challenge. Quoting Ghandi may be juvenile in literary circles, but he did say that “there is more to life than increasing its speed”, a notion that I try to remind myself of every day. Remember that we’re all pulling for you, whatever comes.